Fight!

We fight, scream, scratch, hurt
It's a mother fuckin' fight!
Which part of that don't you understand?
I understand. Oh. Too. Well.
I understand that
I will be alone
even if I met the perfect person,
even if I'm the perfect man,
even if God granted us indescribable love;
we'll fight.
And it's the fight I can't stand.
I'd rather be alone then fight.
And that's why I'll be alone
because we'll fight.

Ultimatum

What would you rather have?
My love or your happiness?
Because you can't have both.
Yes, I know. It sucks.
Love sucks in general.

But for you,
Just for you,
I promise I will love you
Except I might not show it the way you want.
I promise I will shed tears when you leave me
Because I will miss having you around.
You might not always feel my love
But I promise it will always be there.
You will probably cry and want my apologies
And I promise it will always be there.

Every Day

With every day, I hate my life even more as if to say that there is no better way. With every day that passes, I wonder to myself if it'll ever get better before saying to myself no, it won't. With every minute that passes, it feels as if it's an eternity. But with every hour that flies by I try to hold onto the passing memories.

Maybe I'm Mad

Maybe I'm mad all the time
Mad at work, mad at life
Mad that I don't have the time
to relax and be me.
Maybe I'm mad all the time
And it spills onto you
Making you suffer the inconsistent waves
Of my constant madness.
Maybe I'm just mad.
Maybe that's just me.
Maybe I need to be alone.
But baby, please don't leave.

Don't Let Me Push You Away

Don't let me push you away
it'll really mess me up.
But if you stay
it'll really mess you up.

I'd rather die alone

Of all the people I trust, I see you as the one.
Because I don't trust many people. Actually, I trust no one.
But you, you're special because I trust you.
I trusted you. I used to trust you.
Now, I'm not so sure.
You're a quitter.
I'm a loser.
We can never be.
But, you'll always have a place in my heart for what could've been,
and now,
what will never be.

I don't believe

I don't believe in love
so we should break up.
It'll save you heartache and time
so you can find your new valentine.
I'll hate you, and I'll hate him
but it's inevitable.
I'll understand.

Sometimes

Sometimes.
That, is my answer to everything.
When the question is
can you live without me?
No. But sometimes...
Will you miss me if I left you?
Yes. But sometimes...
Do you think we're soulmates?
Yes. But sometimes...
Do you love me?
Yes.
I love you too.
Ok good, but sometimes...

Poetic Justice

I got her name tattooed.
Yes, I got her name tattooed.
We argued and I got her name tattooed.
It was stupid. It was absurd. It was not what I expected
but it happened.
What can I say.

I was young. I was stupid.
I was not scared,
even though I should've been.
I should've dwelt on certain fears, such as
my fears for the future,
my fears of being alone,
my fear of being stupid.
And it all happened anyways.
Stupid.